Despair
Why did you have to come and rock my entire innerself?
You let it all contradictions and questions. A constant feeling of wanting for more than you gave me mixed with the fear of asking for something else and be denied.
And here I linger in doubts and problematizations, never having the guts to be fully true about what I desire. I believe I desire what I cannot have in this lifetime. Why? Because I've had my share of that already, with someone else.
What's there for me from now on is the constant struggle to keep on living with all the bills payed on time. And failing.
You let it all contradictions and questions. A constant feeling of wanting for more than you gave me mixed with the fear of asking for something else and be denied.
And here I linger in doubts and problematizations, never having the guts to be fully true about what I desire. I believe I desire what I cannot have in this lifetime. Why? Because I've had my share of that already, with someone else.
What's there for me from now on is the constant struggle to keep on living with all the bills payed on time. And failing.
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